I'm having a hard time tonight, missing my best friend. I don't know if I've been subconsciously pretending like nothing's wrong or what for what's almost been a month now, but the ache and grief is coming back full blown right now. I know almost no one sees this, which is good and bad I guess but I had to say it somewhere. He was the light in my life and I don't know what i'm going to do without him. I'm just taking it one step at a time right now.